mr.gorgeous strikes back.

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close to sex.

I should've bit my tongue. Maybe I had good karma? Maybe after all my whining about not seeing gay boys someone finally answered my prayers! I don't know but today I had my first sexual experience with a guy. And boy. Was it a beautiful introduction.

It happened at school. Of ALL PLACES, IT HAPPENED AT SCHOOL. I have 2 classes in the performing arts wing and performing arts = tons of guys. Gay guys. So I got really bored in class and decided to peace to the bathroom, I took the elevator instead of the stairs for the first time and I am pretty happy with my decision. I walked in the elevator and there was this super hot guy standing in there. He was tall, defined build, plaid shirt, stubble beard, HOT. He asked me what floor I was I wanted to go on and so I told him. After an awkward floor down he asked me what program I was in. I told him Media Arts, and so I told him about it. It went all relatively quick and I was about to get off on my floor when he asked me for my phone number! What the hell?! No guy has ever. Ever. Asked me for my number. So I gave it too him. We then went separate ways.

My confidence was pretty high, I feel so average, and for him to ask me for my number was a great feeling. It meant I wasn't vomatrocious. While washing my hands, who walks in the bathroom? You betcha. Him. I smiled, he said it was a nice surprise. Then he asked me if anyone was in the bathroom, confused, I said no. Next thing you know he leans in for one. Whoa. What. I backed away and asked him what the hell he was doing. He kind of stared at me oddly, I was not going to ruin it so I just kissed him back. Then he grabs my hand and takes me to the bathroom stall, the big one, where he pushes me against the wall and asks me if I will give him a hand job. It was in a public washroom! Dirty! But I put my hand down his pants and started to rub. It was big. Not big, big, but nice. We kept kissing and I went in to give him head....when I bolted. Basically told him I wasn't down for bathroom sex. That is nasty. He understood and told me to call him...

Do I feel great? Yes. Do I regret it? Yes. Wait why? Cause I wish I finished what I started ;)
I think I love college now...

can't always get what you want.

I am sitting here wanting to just cry. Guess you can say that I am very homesick. The first week of living here has been fine, nothing has been going on though. It is like I am in a rut. Everyday is the same. Go to school, come home, sit on computer, avoid roommates. Thats it! I don't have a problem with my roommates but the one girl just is such a cling on. She will never leave you alone and all she does is get drunk and high. It is getting annoying. Something ain't right with her.

 As for school, I like it, but the real world is coming way too quickly. I am not ready. Is anyone? I just can't believe I am homesick. I didn't think I would be. Also another thing that bums me out is that there are hardly any gay people in my school. Well in my program at least. Talk about annoying.

Somethings never turn out the way you want them too.

get outta my way!

I love Kylie! Her new album has been the soundtrack to my summer and I would go as far to say that this song is one of the best pop songs ever made. The chorus! Her! The video! Everything! This song is my life!

new beginnings.

So I moved all my boxes into my new house. I brought more stuff then I thought I would. Way more. I am glad that is out of the way but tomorrow I am going there and setting up my room. I am really excited about that. It is going to be unique. I got my Lady GaGa poster, Hole poster, Breakfast Club poster, and some Andy Warhol pictures to hang up. I'll make it work!

 I met some of my roommates as well. There is 2 guys, and 2 girls. One of them is my best friend. The new girl has pink hair, really talkative, performing arts student and totally rad. I am going to like her. The guy is going to school for illustration, kinda cute, down to earth, seems cool. That is judging them by first impression though! Hopefully they don't turn into major douche bags. We will see!

Anyways. School starts Tuesday. I am kind of nervous. But not at the same time. I hope I find my classes easily. The school is like a friggin maze! So confusing! Knowing me I will get lost. I'm such a goof. Hope you all had a great summer! I know I did, it went fast though. Too fast.

million miles.

My life is in boxes. Or important parts of me. I am getting ready to move for this saturday to a city I am not really familiar with, but luckily I am not going in alone. Today I helped my sister move into her house in Toronto. Man I am jealous of her and my friend who are moving into that house. It is so cute and artsy. My friend is a great artist and her paintings in the house make it look super original. It was a long day, and my arms felt like jello by noon, but it was worth it. I am glad I got to help them put together there first home! It made me think if I am going to miss home, or my sister and best friend all the time. They aren't far, but I won't get to see them everyday and I don't know how it is going to work. I will have to adjust.

Change is good. That is what everyone says right? Change is good...

it hurts too look at him.

This man is absolutely gorgeous. I love every second he is on True Blood and especially when he takes his shirt off. The things I would do..