new beginnings.

So I moved all my boxes into my new house. I brought more stuff then I thought I would. Way more. I am glad that is out of the way but tomorrow I am going there and setting up my room. I am really excited about that. It is going to be unique. I got my Lady GaGa poster, Hole poster, Breakfast Club poster, and some Andy Warhol pictures to hang up. I'll make it work!

 I met some of my roommates as well. There is 2 guys, and 2 girls. One of them is my best friend. The new girl has pink hair, really talkative, performing arts student and totally rad. I am going to like her. The guy is going to school for illustration, kinda cute, down to earth, seems cool. That is judging them by first impression though! Hopefully they don't turn into major douche bags. We will see!

Anyways. School starts Tuesday. I am kind of nervous. But not at the same time. I hope I find my classes easily. The school is like a friggin maze! So confusing! Knowing me I will get lost. I'm such a goof. Hope you all had a great summer! I know I did, it went fast though. Too fast.

million miles.

My life is in boxes. Or important parts of me. I am getting ready to move for this saturday to a city I am not really familiar with, but luckily I am not going in alone. Today I helped my sister move into her house in Toronto. Man I am jealous of her and my friend who are moving into that house. It is so cute and artsy. My friend is a great artist and her paintings in the house make it look super original. It was a long day, and my arms felt like jello by noon, but it was worth it. I am glad I got to help them put together there first home! It made me think if I am going to miss home, or my sister and best friend all the time. They aren't far, but I won't get to see them everyday and I don't know how it is going to work. I will have to adjust.

Change is good. That is what everyone says right? Change is good...

what is stopping me!

My whole summer goes like this. Sleep in, Party, Work, Think of when to come out to friends, What so say when coming out to friends, How will I EVER tell my family. Pretty much that. Coming out has been on my mind everyday for the past year, but the most I have ever thought of it has been this summer since coming out to my 2 best friends. I don't know why I can't just tell everyone, cause they all have their doubts, but I just can't seem to bring it up!

 There has been SOOO many perfect moments to just say it. Just to blurt it out there and get it over with. But I keep repeating, give it time, say it in the next 10 minutes. Of course nothing ever happens. Nothing at all. I just want to tell my sister! Me and her are close, and I know she won't care, but like at the same time it opens the door to the family part of coming out, and I don't feel ready for that. At all. My family is a tight core group, we have a time when we are all together. We are very loud and funny. I feel like if I was to come out, it would actually be the elephant in the room. Everyone would look at me and only see... gay. 

 But as for my friends. It is going to happen soon. I know they won't care about it, but I feel it deep down that I'm just going to say it soon..

Very soon...