you'll wish you never met me.

I just go an angry email from my ex about my little performance the other night, he called me "the worst person he ever dated" and that he "should've never gone out with your pathetic ass in the first place, you wouldn't have done anything if I hadn't mind fucked you" anddddddd all I said was...

"Ya. Ha ha. Who is this?"

To which he replied back saying, "You've got to be fucking kidding me? Who else! Did you already fuck 30 other guys to forget about me?" This email ended with me saying, "You are a loser, thanks for emailing me on my performance, you looked like a wanker, I looked great, if it bugs you so much. You know where to reach me!" And then I got a phone call! Him screaming, and telling me he's in bed with his ex, fucking him and he's so much better. Then I just laughed and said, "Man you really got to be kidding me. I didn't think you would actually call but goes to show how fucking douchey you are. Have fun fucking that guy whos fucking other people! Bye."

I am sorry but I always get the last word. He's such a douche. I hate him. It boggles my mind why he insists on keeping contact with me. He totally likes me still. TOTALLY.

how hot...

IS THIS ASS.

i'm thinking what the hell!

I went back to the gay club this weekend. It's becoming a habit, and I always get so plastered.

The now named "The Ex" was there as well. It was swell, and we were really harsh. He was at the front of the line to get in, and I walked right by him and gave him a smile. No harm, just doing my dues. Well I think he thought I was being bitchy so the whole night he was trying to dance as close to me with guys and make out with them in front of me. Jealous? Nah. I was just starting to get rattled when he kept FOLLOWING me. Like over a smile... really?

I do admit it got creepy, but it was so fun because he kept getting more mad when I didn't pay attention. He truly is sinking into a low. No longer is he mysterious and irresistible, but now desperate and lame. Did I mention he was with his ex by the way but they were both making out with other guys? What. Talk about open relationship. Well anyways, it was karaoke night so I got paid 50 bucks. Yes $50. Thats a little pricey for most people, but my friends really wanted me to do. This one guy did a funny rendition of "Peacock" by Katy Perry and it was great. Lots of Trannys did Lady GaGa songs, and of course Madonna. Obviously they rehearsed. Well I strolled up to the DJ and told him to put on "What The Hell" by Avril Lavigne and he laughed and said, "Go get em kid!"

Do you know what that songs about? Not giving a shit thats what! And I rocked that stage. I told the crowd, "This is dedicated to someone in the room right now, and too all my friends, because if I wasn't so drunk I wouldn't be up here making a fool of myself." Then I sang. Not going to lie. I can sing. And going crazy over that song was awesome. I felt like a rockstar. And I am sure the ex got the message. Now I see why the guys in drag love being on that stage so much.

It's SO much fun!

webcam sex with a dad... and his mom?!

So the weirdest thing EVER. Just happened to me. I got really horny, and felt like playfully camming with an older dad. No harm doing that. So I found an attractive one that was willing to cam and we went on Skype. Some camming experiences I've had have been really bizarre, and some guys have been straight up fucked. Like the guy I just cammed with.

 The conversation got rolling and he's like you gay?.... UM. YA. Then he told me he was married, which I found hot, then asked who's the lucky guy? What do I get in return? "You mean girl"..... OH. SO YOUR FAKE STRAIGHT? "No Bi"....Oh Okay. Keep jerking. Next thing you know what do I hear? A womans voice. I thought it must've been his wife, and he was saying that she sometimes participates in his webcam chats. I was like nah man, not interested in that. So he stops jerking. Then I hear a womans voice say, "Oh your naked?!" he's just like, YEP! She's telling him a story and all, while he's jerking... on camera with me! What!!!! I had to get out of the conversation, but then she left, and he's like, "Oh ya that's my mom, she doesn't care, but when she gets back in the room she is probably going to want to see your face and all, and get to know ya!" End call. Block. Delete.

WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. THE. FUCK. Is that normal?! Who is this guy?! I'm just rattled.

ugh.

SO HOT.

grindr.

So after my breakup I thought I needed to find my local gays, and possibly start getting some more gay friends. So far it's been fun, a lot of hot guys on it. You guys have an account? A lot of the people are obviously there for sex, but not everyone. I like how reliable it is, it truly is gaydar at it's finest.

It sucks when douchebags don't reply back to you though.

thanks for nothing: the break up.

Well guys. I haven't posted in awhile, but all for good reasons. Who knows if anyone is reading this blog in it's entirety anyways? Well thats besides the point, and for the people who are reading it, I'll fill you in what happened in the past 10 days...

 So I did show up to Robbs house unannounced on the 29th and boy, was he pissed. I told him I was in the neighbourhood and that he should let me in, I wouldn't be there for long. He kept saying he was really busy, and it was a bad time for me to show up. I kept my cool, just kind of looked at him and smiled a little and said, "Right. Bad time. Gotcha" and walked away. It took me a 15 dollar cab to get there, and I was only there for like 5 minutes. Totally worth it though. He called me the next day and apologized, saying that his grandma was in the hospital, and that he didn't want to be with anyone. I consoled him and said thats fine. In reality though, thats bullshit because she isn't in the hospital I would come to know...

 The complete distance between us got longer every time I caught him in a lie, I didn't know what he was doing, but all I know is that he didn't want to break up with me. Why? I don't know. The final straw came when I went to the gay club with my friend again. This club is so fun. Well Robb blew me off that night because he said he was going to visit his grandma, so I went clubbing instead. It was such a blast, we got hit on a lot, but mostly by creepy bears whispering in our ears that they had there dicks pierced. EW. Now this is where it all blows up. As the song "Get Outta My Way" by Kylie Minogue pops on (my anthem) My friend pokes me and points to the other side of the room. Guess who it is? YEP. Robb. With who? His ex. The little fucker. At that moment in time, I felt sick to my stomach, I knew deep down something was happening, but to finally see it is a whole new punch in the gut.

 I asked my friend if I should do something. I felt embarrassed to be there and wanted to leave, but he told me that I had to make him look like a fool. I had to sit and think about if I should just leave it, and confront him later, but ultimately opted for humiliation. So while my jam was playing, I waltzed up behind them (keep in mind I was smashed) and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned around. The smile on his face dropped and he froze. I basically stood there smiling at them both, and DEATH STARED the ex, I asked them if they were having a great time, they looked at each other, and I just rolled my eyes and walked away. Robb and his ex followed me to the bathroom, and Robb tried to explain. "No need!" I said, then his stupid fucking ex chimes in and I snapped. I told him to get the fuck out my space before I destroyed his pretty little face. He kept trying to reason, and I legit got up in his face and said, "Seriously. I don't care what you have to say, get the fuck out of my space or I'll beat your face in" Such violence. I don't know where it came from within me. The ex left, and Robb stood there trying to speak. I ended the conversation with this..

"Listen Robb, I always knew you and I would never last long, sad I know, but it's the truth. So really you standing here telling me a lie, on top of a million other lies, will not  make everything fine and dandy, like you thought it has over the past month. Gotta say, you have to be the biggest regret of my life."

And like that we were over. He emailed me yesterday with an apology, saying he feels like shit, and that the only reason he was hanging with his ex, and fucking him was because he was afraid that he loved me too much and it scared him that he never cared that much for another person before. K. Then WHY would you hurt the person you love most? Lmao. Wow. He must be retarded. Thank GOD this is all over. I was sad, but now its a relief. He looks like an idiot, and my job is done.

So... Hey boys. I'm single, and looking for a sensational fuck. No strings attached. You in?