close to sex.

I should've bit my tongue. Maybe I had good karma? Maybe after all my whining about not seeing gay boys someone finally answered my prayers! I don't know but today I had my first sexual experience with a guy. And boy. Was it a beautiful introduction.

It happened at school. Of ALL PLACES, IT HAPPENED AT SCHOOL. I have 2 classes in the performing arts wing and performing arts = tons of guys. Gay guys. So I got really bored in class and decided to peace to the bathroom, I took the elevator instead of the stairs for the first time and I am pretty happy with my decision. I walked in the elevator and there was this super hot guy standing in there. He was tall, defined build, plaid shirt, stubble beard, HOT. He asked me what floor I was I wanted to go on and so I told him. After an awkward floor down he asked me what program I was in. I told him Media Arts, and so I told him about it. It went all relatively quick and I was about to get off on my floor when he asked me for my phone number! What the hell?! No guy has ever. Ever. Asked me for my number. So I gave it too him. We then went separate ways.

My confidence was pretty high, I feel so average, and for him to ask me for my number was a great feeling. It meant I wasn't vomatrocious. While washing my hands, who walks in the bathroom? You betcha. Him. I smiled, he said it was a nice surprise. Then he asked me if anyone was in the bathroom, confused, I said no. Next thing you know he leans in for one. Whoa. What. I backed away and asked him what the hell he was doing. He kind of stared at me oddly, I was not going to ruin it so I just kissed him back. Then he grabs my hand and takes me to the bathroom stall, the big one, where he pushes me against the wall and asks me if I will give him a hand job. It was in a public washroom! Dirty! But I put my hand down his pants and started to rub. It was big. Not big, big, but nice. We kept kissing and I went in to give him head....when I bolted. Basically told him I wasn't down for bathroom sex. That is nasty. He understood and told me to call him...

Do I feel great? Yes. Do I regret it? Yes. Wait why? Cause I wish I finished what I started ;)
I think I love college now...