devils night.

Halloween was fun. I guess. Well I went to 2 parties this weekend, and the party I thought was going to suck was way better then the one I had high expectations for. On Friday I went to my friends house by my school, and we got super drunk and then really, really high. My friend made a major joint, a huge one, then 2 small ones. My friend and I were howling at everything, I felt so amateur at getting high, but I'm not. It was just really good weed. We were fascinated with Kanye West's new music video, and Eva Longoria's EMA rap, and these lights that look like tits. Awkward. But we howled so much.

 I didn't know many people at that party though, because it was all friends from my friends program at school. But I think I made some new friends. My costume was like a cracked out Sue Sylvester, I don't even know what it was. It looked 80's. As for yesterday, it started bad. First off the party started at 9, we decided to leave then and it took us 2 hours to get there. When it should've taken at least 40 minutes! We got lost, and we were all wanting to cut each others heads off. We finally got there and the party was divided by the older kids and younger ones. We sat on the kitchen floor and played drinking games and talked. The older kids watched fucking sponge bob. Like what? It was boring, and then it got worse. I lost my iPhone and couldn't find it ANYWHERE! I tried to just forget about it, and we all went to this plaza looking for pizza. Instead we started smashing pumpkins. I felt like a hoodlum. I always hated those kids who did that. But whatever! They were the grocery store pumpkins, they were gonna get thrown out anyways!

My Adam Lambert costume was a success, I actually looked like him. But I have been told countless times before that I look exactly like him, so I really wanted to go all out and see if I did. SUCCESS. The next day we found my phone, under the oven. WTF.

I swear a demon put it there.

happy halloween!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

move over.

I have been talking to this new guy through text for the past 4 hours. He's really nice and sweet. He lives a little far, but we could make it work. I feel like this guy wouldn't play me like Mr. Gorgeous. + he's funny, he said he would love to see me in skinny jeans and a slayer shirt. Ha ha.

The age thing is kind of a cock block though. Like I said I'm not against it! But it could get weird...

here we go again.

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it was enchanting to meet him.

So I went out with Mr.Gorgeous again. After he texted me apologizing, I just told him to let me be, I'm not new to seeing guys, and that I don't want my first time to be a game. He understood, and asked if we could go talk in person, for coffee and such. I said no. I didn't want to get my hopes up again! This guy seems to have a tendency to give love and snatch it back. I don't want that. Who does?

After I said no he called me, and I didn't answer, and he kept calling till I did. I kind of flipped on him, and he just said he will come pick me up. I gave it thought, I wanted to hear why he didn't call, and then just end it. Maybe be friends? Well he picked me up and we went to a Tim Hortons and chilled. It was awkward at first for obvious reasons, but he told me straight up that the reason why he ignored me was because he has feelings for me and isn't looking for a relationship. I told him that was retarded and stupid. If he felt something for me why not make it into something? Why waste those feelings?!

 I asked him if could drive me home, I was upset. He did, and halfway he pulled over and reached over and kissed me. Really, really hard. It hurt. But it felt so good. I started crying because I was really hurt that he was just going to leave me hanging. The conversation obviously showed me that I had feelings for him. I pushed him away and then he kept driving. When we got to my house he said he was sorry, kissed me, and I left. I haven't talked to him since yesterday. I cried a lot last night. It all sounds like a soap opera and I hate that it has to be that way.

 We will see what comes of this, because I really fell for him.

for everybody, everyone.

The album I have been jamming to for the past day. So many songs that deal with the situation I am going through right now. I recommend you listen to this fun pop album!

loss of words.

It is finally reading week, thank the lord. Because last minute all my teachers decided to rape me with homework, and now all the plans I've had have to be cancelled or rescheduled. Bullshit. I stayed up till 4 last night trying to finish one of my projects. I woke up today at 4. It sucks.

BUT, the reason why I am writing a blog post is because "Mr. Gorgeous" texted me today, (about an hour ago) and apologized to me! I haven't texted back, but he sent another one like 15 minutes ago saying once again he was sorry and that he understands if I don't want to talk to him.

WHAT DO I DO?! What should I say?! Sound off on comments, I legit don't know to say...